I will be heading of to my fiancee's church with her after office hours today and I am whiling away the hours in the Minneapolis public library until it's time to meet up with her and head over to church.
We're basically trying to figure out what is required for me to convert to Catholicism and I am a bit apprehensive about the process, but am keeping an open mind about it.
It's so strange, why does a guy who doesn't believe in anything feel so afraid to take steps to believe. I've come to feel that being an atheist, free thinker or agnostic is just as important to a person as being a christian, muslim or buddhist.
I'm afraid to give up my lack of religion if that makes sense.
Hopefully it goes well and I can clarify some things and put my doubts to rest.
Wish me luck.
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I see that you are way too concerned about this converting thing. I also feel that if you take it as something to do while you are waitng for better things to materialize, you might feel more relaxed about it.All i can say is what you resist will persist. There is a saying if you make friends with what bothers you, what bothers you will make friends with you. Who knows you may even start liking this process you have to go through. Your preconceived ideas about 'religion' are frightening you for all you know. And the next best reason could be that you think it is a waste of time doing this,as opposed to what ever activities you like more, spending your time doing. The only negative thing i can see is that it postpones the ceremony for quite some time, well you are both in the same town already arnt you?
ReplyDeleteHave i tied you in a knot already?
Jokes aside, take it easy man, it wont be that bad i am sure..
I can understand what you are going through man. All I can say is, give it a fair chance, you've given a lot of time not believing so now give faith a try. See if it is for you. If it doesn't work out, you'll just be like the millions of people who professes to believe and just carry on mindlessly with the rituals and totally missing out on the real message. Its not really that bad you know. If however, faith works for you then more power to you. You would have found something that people are willing to die to protect. That can't be too bad either. See when you put it this way it's simple. Go with an open mind and follow your heart.
ReplyDeletedei when is the next post la? common la why so slow? u not doin anything there rite? blog more la!
ReplyDeletei understand what ur saying... jst imagining it seems tough... its certainly much harder actually goin through it... bt yeah, as what warlock said... u gotta jst give it a shot... u need an open mind... if u really cant take it.. then ul jst be like the bilions of ppl that dont really believe but claim to be followers of a certain religion.. owh n i jst gotta say, im still swallowing the fact that youve migrated... wondering what are all the things that run on your mind.. wondering how it would be for others like me if we did the same.. fact is, it surely took tonnes of guts to even plan to migrate... and even more guts to wave goodbye to all that you knew as home... i respect your guts. I really hope that you find yourself home in the states.. =)
ReplyDeleteDude you really need to watch this movie: Religulous: The Truth is Near
ReplyDeleteHahhah I thought I'd stand back a bit from the blog to see if anyone commented so I am pleasantly surprised ^^
ReplyDeleteWe just saw Religulous last week actually and it was awesome. Everything is good now, I had a lot of concerns about this whole religion thing but we worked it out and it didn't feel like a big deal anymore.
I'm trying to make beef curry today so my next post is incoming after that
Where's the shoutout box??
ReplyDeleteWhere is this mythical "next post" ?
ReplyDeleteGuess he didnt survive his beef curry.......
ReplyDeleteYou seem to be enjoying too much to blog any more. That just shows you have come out of your fears. Good for you.Any way good if you could continue to post your thoughts because this is an interesting subject
ReplyDeletecibai...there is no respite for your hellbound soul so converting isn't really gonna make a difference!hehehe.
ReplyDeletebut i suppose it's just one of those things that everyone'll need to do at some point in order to gain something more important (no,not psycho power) in their life but you'll always be a cibai to me anyways!